try looking back on all you’ve made and grown, both as a distraction and a reminder. i hope everything is ok, be careful with wanting numbness. that’s a dark road. you are strong :)
No, I’m not strong. I really am not. I can be stubborn at times and that might seem like strength but it isn’t. I’m weak and prone to fall apart and with a far too easily damaged sense of self-worth. That’s why there have been thought of “this was for the best” and “I deserve this” in a few variations. Or maybe I am strong in parts, not sure of much right now.
But yeah, don’t want to be numb all the time. Just… now. This week or so.
pikkutiikeri replied to your post: Fuck the hiatus. I thought it was a good idea, but…
And thank you all. Still prepared to pay for hugs though. I got cookies I don’t want to eat.